Special Lupus Awareness Issue May 2017 | Page 64

Life Of A Lupie's Mom By Nisa Mathurin A bsolutely no one can make it happen. No one person will ever understand what you are going through. Do you  even know how you do it? Or even understand how you make it through? I made it through because of the Almighty God above who strengthened and directed my path. I became a mother of a lupie in 2012 and everything around me seemed like a horror movie. But I didn’t give up. I didn’t allow my daughters 'wolf' to get the better of me. I didn’t lose control. Instead, I stood up and I faced this monster head on. Yes, there were days when I lived in denial. Days when I just couldn’t accept it. But then I realized I needed to be the source of strength not only for me but for my entire family. I had to get it together. As the year slowly creeped by and we slowly accepted the monster, the wolf, the lupus, as a pet in our lives, he became comfortable. And when we least expected, he betrayed us. Lupus was eating up my daughter slowly to the point that she was hospitalized for many months until our local doctors gave up and we had to be airlifted to Martinique. February 15, 2015, my daughter suffered with hemolytic uremic syndrome (a kidney condition that happens when red blood cells are destroyed and block the kidneys' filtering system). 64