Solutions June 2019 | Page 35

My first real job—if you don’t count a few summer stints in food service— was leading worship in a local church. Perimeter Church needed a worship leader, and I was naïve enough to think that my brand-new music degree and the four guitar chords I knew might qualify me. I mean, I loved the Lord and I knew music—I could play and sing. Surely that was enough, right? It took God no time at all to show me how unprepared I was to truly worship him, much less to help anyone else do likewise. Four months into the job, when Martin became so ill, I struggled to stand before a congregation of people singing songs of praise to God. How in the world could I lift my voice in joy when our lives seemed to be falling apart? How could I proclaim his faithfulness when my own faith was taking such an awful pounding? During this season of personal wrest lin g , m y w h o l e c o n c e p t of worship began to change. I discovered that God wasn’t offended if I couldn’t “feel it” on a Sunday morning. Instead of worship as a warm and fuzzy, emotional experience, I began to see it as a deeper, conscious choice to praise my always-worthy God. But getting there wasn’t easy. I began to search the Scriptures for a solid definition of worship, something I could hang my hat on when my feelings didn’t automatically inspire me to praise. It was in the book of Romans that I finally found the answer I was looking for. The first eleven chapters of Romans contain what many theologians agree is the most comprehensive exposition of grace found anywhere in the Bible. After these eleven chapters full of rich truth, it’s as if Paul took a deep breath and answered the obvious question now hanging in the air: Considering all that Christ has done for us—making us right with God by his atoning death, freeing us from the penalty and power of sin, lavishing us with his grace—how should we respond? I wonder if his answer surprised them. It surprised me. “Therefore,” he wrote, “present your bodies as a living sacrifice” (Rom. 12:1 ESV). In other words, “Surrender your life, body and soul, to God. Give yourself up!” Paul’s readers would have understood the concept of sacrifice. He wrote to the first-century house churches in Rome, made up of Jewish and Roman converts to Christianity. Both groups were familiar with the practice of offering sacrifices in worship—Jewish or pagan—and both would also be reminded of Jesus’ sacrifice on their behalf. One key word in Paul’s instruction showed me that he wasn’t talking about a martyr’s sacrifice; that word is living. He wasn’t suggesting followers of Jesus should all die for their faith; he was asking them all to live for it— with lives of sacrifice that were holy and acceptable to God. This kind of surrendered life, he said, is our true and proper response. Worship is a lived experience. Solutions • 35