This is a quote from Elizabeth Smart, who was kidnapped in June of 2002, telling the story of her kidnaping and what happened when the man first raped her.
I wasn’t even a real human anymore, and as I lay there crying, alone, I began to think of the children who I had seen on the news whose stories all seemed to be the same: kidnap, rape, torture, death. Murder. I began to think, “I wish I could be one of those children. I wish that that was be because nobody will ever be able to hurt them ever again. Nobody will ever make them feel bad. They will never feel hurt, they will never feel pain, and they will never have to live a single day of their life feeling the shame of knowing what’s happened to them." And I remember just wishing that I could be dead and I ended up falling asleep thinking those thoughts and when I woke up there was this man kneeling over me and he had a thick metal cable and he had wrapped it tightly around my ankle and he had bolted it into place. I remember getting up and following this cable to see what it was connected to, and I saw it was bolted around a big tree. Much too big for me to climb, much too thick for me to cut down, besides that, there was nothing sharp within my reach. They had made sure of that. I remember just sitting down and feeling- I mean if I could have felt any more despair, if I could have felt any more darkness or any more complete hopelessness than I already did, well, I did in that moment. I just felt like my life might as well be over.
If you have been or ever are raped, you can call the national rape hotline at 1-800-656-HOPE, and they will help you. To prevent rape, there are self defense classes all over that you can take for free. Stay with your group of friends in any situation that could turn bad, and if you witness a rape CALL 911. You can really make a difference.