Shelby County Moms Guide May 2014 | Page 12

Feature Article What in the world happened to all my friends? by Kaci Scott “ I took my friendships for granted, forgetting that, as my marriage, the friendship needed to be nurtured and fed with regular contact and with time spent together. “ It seems like my baby shower was just yesterday. Over a dozen of my close girlfriends got together to help me celebrate the daughter that I was expecting later that month. We talked, and laughed, and reminisced for hours, never dreaming that anything could get in the way of our friendship. Most of us had been friends since our high school days, and we had been there to support each other through those early days of our careers, and though various boyfriends, breakups, and then our marriages. How in the world would anyone expect that a seven pound, four ounces baby girl could change friendships that had lasted for so many years. I’m not sure when things started to change. Maybe I had that first inkling that a change was coming the night before I went into labor. The girls all wanted to get together for one more dinner before the baby was born. I was exhausted and didn’t feel quite right, and I declined. I remember being a little disappointed the Shelby County Moms Guide / May 2014 12 next day when I found out they went ahead and had that group dinner without me. But then I went into labor, and my beautiful baby girl, Jasmine, was born. Those first few days were so exciting; the girls checked in on me regularly by phone and text, came by to see Jasmine, and brought her even more gifts. We talked a lot those first two weeks. Jasmine slept most of the time, and my husband was home helping me care for her. Then he had to go back to work. Life suddenly changed. How in the world did it get so much harder to take care of a baby? I was exhausted, and because he had to get up in the morning to go to work, I got up for those middle of the night diaper changes and feedings by myself. When she slept during the day, I found myself catching a nap too. I honestly didn’t even have time to answer the phone or a text messages. Occasionally I’d answer with a quick “ok”, but there never seemed to be time for a real conversation. When I would sign onto Facebook, I would find dozens of unread messages. All of a text messages were so overwhelming; I just left them unread and unanswered. I did not even realize my friends and I were drifting apart. Sure, they would occasionally call or pop by the house, but those calls and visits became less and less frequent as I declined the invitations to get together for coffee or lunch. I did not want to take Jasmine out and expose her to germs in the coffee shops and restaurants; there was too much flu going around. Looking back, that must have sounded like an excuse to my friends. Now that I think about it…it probably was an excuse. Life does change. Marriage, having children, a career and so many other things dynamics shift the sands of relationships under us, and we do not even feel them slipping away through our toes. I took my friendships for granted, forgetting that, as my marriage, the friendship needed to be nurtured and fed with regular contact and with time spent together. I learned that one of my close friends,