DVD I vocalized my views angrily and
the people listened to me. A man called
Graham prayed for me saying he felt God
was saying He cared for me and was going
to bring me back to Him. I missed God
so much but felt my life was in too much
of a mess for God to want me back at all.
Graham became my friend and he didn’t
mind when I said things out of order
which I did a lot when I was stressed,
angry or annoyed. He listened and did not
judge me. He stayed my friend when other
people would have walked away thinking,
I will pray for her but I’m not getting too
involved. Graham showed me patience
and kindness I had forgotten was there in
Christians. I continued to drink alcohol and
smoke cigarettes and go clubbing on Dad’s
weekends but never touched ‘Poppers’
again. After a couple of sessions I stopped
Divorce Care because it did my head in.
Through the sessions however, I found out
about DC4K which is a course especially
for children to help them understand
divorce.
I just wanted to forget and not deal with it.
But despite all this God did not give up on
me and I started Divorce Care in February
2014 every Saturday morning.
Every week it all made more sense and
I would read the book and answer what
questions I could as I still did not believe
in all the Bible and God stuff. One day
I questioned the Bible and how it didn’t
make sense to me and the leader Barbara
said, “The Bible would make sense to
anyone who is a true Christian.” Another
time Barbara spoke about her marriage
breakdown and how she turned to Jesus
straight away. I questioned why I didn’t do
that. Barbara was very passionate about
people really KNOWING JESUS and how
GOD was in the HEART business. That
God wants to know your heart. I thought
He will not want to know mine anymore its
broken and ruined. I kept being prayed for
about things and they really cared about
the fact my marriage had been awful and
especially how hurt my children and I were.
I was shown this wasn’t God’s plan for my
encouraged to read it. It made me realize
my error and that ‘God has a wonderful
plan for my life!’ As I read it God showed
me I was a ‘False Convert’ and showed me
how back in February 2006 I hadn’t truly
turned my life away from sin. I had carried
on breaking all His commandments and
I was a sinner and I was condemned to
Hell. The good news was I was still alive! I
struggled to accept that I had been a false
convert and felt embarrassed to talk to my
new friends so I messaged the man who
runs Living Waters. He was wonderful
and helped me to understand what was
happening to me. Then on 2nd May 2014
at 23:54 I fully repented, \