SHARE Magazine January 2015 | Page 18

TESTIM I thought I had become a born again Christian in February 2006. Looking back, I had knelt on my knees and confessed in prayer that I believed in Jesus. Having done this, I thought that I was saved. I still went out clubbing that night and went to church in the morning with a hangover. I was baptized on the 24”‘ March 2007 and newly married on the 13”‘ October 2007. I did all sorts of Christian activities in that time such as Alpha Courses, Discipleship Explored, Christianity Explored, Christian Based Stepparent Family Course and a Marriage Course. The one thing I ignored was a significant Scripture God kept guiding me to do BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD (NIV) Psalm 46:10. STAND STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD (The Living Bible). It took me seven long hard years to finally take notice of this Scripture. Trouble Brings Change My marriage wasn’t easy at all especially for my three sons Declan, Casey-Joel and Kieran. We went through many struggles. I prayed to God a lot in the first year but gradually stopped. By April 2009 I was no longer attending church, reading the Bible or praying although God still blessed us with my fourth gorgeous son Levi born 12”‘ January 2010. Things did not improve though, especially for my three older boys and on May 11th 2011 my marriage broke down completely. It was awful. I was now a single mum with four sons and seven weeks pregnant. The first year after I was baptized a woman said that all a Christian needs is God and the Bible. So I tried that and 18 | started reading the book of John along with my son Casey-Joel. But life was stressful being on my own again and pregnant. We lasted about two weeks and the Bible studies stopped. I gave birth to my beautiful daughter Asha-Nais on the 24”‘ December 2011. Then in May 2012 my fifteen year old son Declan came home crying and said, “Please go back to church Mum you were happy when you went to church.” At first I didn’t go but gradually his words affected me and I sometimes went. I quietly read the words in the songs as I couldn’t sing anymore. I decided what I had experienced was God’s love. I didn’t know where to take this or who to talk to. I knew God was amazing and I thanked Him for my five healthy chi