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Mountains Are Pleasure If You Drive With Leisure Lestari Hairul On the winding, steep roads of Ladakh, India, you will encounter a series of amusing and at times poetic signs erected by the Border Road Organisation (BRO). They’re ubiquitous, easy to spot and, thanks to the acronym, manage to speak to you both directly and in a friendly manner. “Bro”, it seemed to tell me time and time again, “Don’t Be A Gama In The Land Of The Lama”*. There are other, funnier signs of course. One of the sayings that particularly tickled my friends and I was “Don’t Gossip, Let Him Drive”. Or here’s another one, “Drive Slow Or Your Grave Is Down Below”. The signs are a humorous way of reminding road-users that, as beautiful as the landscape is, one careless move may well spell doom. But it is the injunction to not be an overconfident strong guy in the land of a chill dude that sticks with me. I should’ve paid attention to my symptoms right from the beginning. Call it bravado, or the bullishness of a tourist short on time and determined to catch all the sights. Friends who know better have advised that it’s best to take it easy the first two days upon touching down in Ladakh. One should acclimatise well before attempting a trek since it will take you higher and higher through rugged terrain. I was not acclimatising well. Climbing up the multitude of steps to explore the old crumbling structures of Leh town left me breathless. Having lunch by Lake Pangong was making my heart beat twice its usual rate. And here’s the kicker: I have never done a multi-day trek before. I was unfit, untrained and ridiculously foolhardy. To my mind, I was in good company because I was doing the trek with two smokers, great friends I met through work. But the joke was on me, one of them was assumed to be Ladakhi even by the guides because he was breezing—running, skipping, even—past everyone at top speed with a full pack on whilst puffing away on his stash of cigarettes. The other, an utterly stylish lady with a head of silver hair so luminous people were asking her for selfies together back in Delhi, was trooping onwards at a steady relentless pace that would’ve made her fashion industry peers reel in disbelief. And that they did. Whilst my friends were forging on far ahead of me, I was slipping into delirium. I was angry with my body for failing me, angry with myself for jumping on this trip. When everyone else has left you in the dust, you end up with a lot of time on your hands to think through life and all the bullshit you’ve spewed or done. I’d gone in with the same stupid confidence I have for most new things in my life. A year earlier I’d fallen off a modest waterfall in Fiji, only to crash my golf buggy into a tree and hit my head just a day later as I attempted to make a quick manoeuvre on a steep path. Months before, a Segway shredded my right thigh as I was trying to show off a spinning trick I’d just taught myself five minutes before yelling at everyone to watch me. Two years before that, I’d dropped out of Monash after accepting a job offer at the magazine I was interning at. I’ve done several silly things and made life decisions on the fly just running on the strength of the words “Why the hell not?” And all that culminated with me tearfully talking to a white horse of my regrets. The heat, the dust, the dry chapatis and the heavy load on my chest finally drove me to that corner on the path where, hidden by tall, dry grass, a pair of white horses kept me company. I knew I was hallucinating but it was comforting somehow. I spoke to the horse like he was my priest, rambling about how sorry I was and that I will never attempt to climb Everest to have my corpse left behind covered by ice. I cried and warbled about not telling 125 This isn’t a redemption story; this protagonist does not emerge from the trial of fire to become a glamorous butterfly. In Sperga, Turin (2018). ▶