SALT Central Coast Issue 2 | Page 29

How not getting paid for doing what you love can be a gift Not everyone who asks you to do something for them for free is trying to take something from you. Sometimes, they are giving you an incredible gift. I remember years ago, I’d taken a job for $10 an hour in a dirty little fabric shop after closing down my own beautiful homewares business. I thought I was going crazy. So frightened was I the cancer would come back, I started reversing my life into smaller, lesser and lower, to match how I felt about my future. What’s the point? I could die next year. I can’t have a career, a business. So many people will be hurt if I have a big life and get sick. I need to pull back, pull it down, close it up. Years after I went into remission from cancer, I started dying. And then someone gave me a gift – they asked me to do something for nothing. I was asked by someone to give a little talk at a council meeting about cancer services. Then I was asked to have my picture taken for the paper for a cancer fundraiser. Then they asked me to write a letter to the paper. Then they asked me to lead a group. At the time, I was being asked to do these things without pay. It was a trick though. I did get something. I got to do things I was really good at, and loved, and which helped people, and I learned to detach my sense of purpose from the necessity of making an income from it.  This was a bre