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outside!” (Bender 11), that even though this door will not be used in the future, parents still offer him the right to choose whether he is going out someday or not. We could see that as the first child in this family, Joseph is offered a choice to go outside, which shows that his mother is giving him the right and control of his own life decisions, and opportuni- ties to go out to another platform or stage As the firstborn child, Lane is providing him this kind of power without Joseph’s own requirements. Rose responded straightforwardly after she saw her brother’s door, “why can’t I have a door?” (Bender 11). Mom simply replied by saying she is too young for a door (Bender 11). As the second child in the family, Rose get rejected without clear explanations, and she didn’t even argue about it. Lane refuses to give her power and control. Age could be a factor when considering, but the “door” doesn’t happen to Rose even when she’s old enough. The phenomenon addressed above shows the status of Paul and Lane for most of the time. Paul sat on the table and wait for his own food, without asking and requiring he gets all he needs, most of the times food and attention from other family members. But when it comes to Lane, if Rose’s interpretation is trustworthy enough, she wanted atten- tion and concern by other family member without saying verbally, “Please worry about me, I saw in there. Her voice not matching her eyes” (Bender). The only once when Paul realized something wrong with her and asks, “What is it, Lane?” (Bender 36), she replies by hiding the truth, “I was just teasing, earlier, I feel very supported, by all of you” (Bend- er 36). Sadly, she didn’t really get any besides Rose’s. She is doesn’t frustrateds because of it and she didn’t complain or argue even once. We could tell at the end of the story, Rose’s capacity, tasting feelings from food, and Joseph's ability, transferring into furniture, are all associated with Mom’s capacity. And the ability to obtain a capacity which is strongly connected to Paul. What I wanted to prove and illustrate in all the analysis above is to demonstrate the treatment difference between siblings and how are these differences a part of family environment and impact their personalities. An old saying states that we all someday marry our father or mother, what could be accounting for that is we all ends up in the shape of either our father or mother, or both, that why we will probably make the same decision as they did—marrying each other. Family environment, including family relationship, parents’ personalities, behaviors, and attitudes, do influence adolescence, it seems to be like a conformity, how in the very end, we all become people similar with our parents.