life than I was while working my regular grind! Geez!
I think to some, I may be sounding like an ungrateful dweeb (look
it up kids) and they might be saying
“Get it together!” (Dr Phil would call
you judgemental) but believe me, this
is more of a mind adventure than I
anticipated! I recognize this is a time
to touch and see everything, and I’m
grateful to be able to at this time of
life but such a chance at self-directed
greatness is intimidating. My dream of
leaving the company was comfortable
in the distance. The pinching shoe fit
perfectly. The daily hustle kept me
busy and set. I knew what to expect.
I’m not sure why I believed I would get
something other than what I asked
for when I prayed continuously for a
change. Sigh. Crazy, huh?
I’m obviously still trying to break
in these new life shoes - the leather is
stiff but they are my size. Just like this
time of reflection and rest is specifically mine for right now.
My final thoughts two weeks into
retirement? This retirement means
knowing that I’m not finished - still
a little scary but exciting. I’m not the
position I hold - I learned everything
I used at that job, I’m still capable of
learning more. I’m really not lost or
idle. I’m realizing, in this time, I’m gradually being reunited with the me I knew
before I stumbled into the last quarter
of a century.
Written by Shannon Brooks
NOV/DEC 2015
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