SELF REVELATION
December seventh , nineteen ninety six was the day I decided to be honest with myself . I decided to look in the mirror and make changes . Necessary changes to make sure that I was being true to me . For the longest , I had a nagging feeling that was eating away at my insides . Deep down , I knew what was wrong , what was chipping at my soul and tearing down my spirit . I was not being true to me . I had allowed love to blind me and stunt my growth . I was always taught to always make sure that home was taken care of , but no one told me that while I was taking care of home , it was imperative that I should ’ ve been taking care of myself first and foremost . Somebody should have advised me that I could take care of home and still become the woman I was put on earth to be . No one emphasized that while I was taking care of home , it was imperative that I lived my own life , which included time alone and time with sister friends . My favorite African American Proverb is “ A Woman without her sisters is like a bird without wings .” Ms . Maya Angelou was on point with that proverb . In taking care of home , I was always willing to please others , to give and to make sure I was on my A game . Never taking the time to realize home was not reciprocating .
When a relationship becomes unbalanced it can be hard to get it back to where it needs to be . One partner is used to giving and the other is use to taking . I ’ d somehow allowed myself to get lost into my Man ’ s world . To trust that he would never hurt me . Never realizing that he was only human and humans should never be placed on a pedestal .
Betrayal , deceits and lies decided to rear its ugly head . The pain was indescribable , but it forced me to find me . That experience was a lesson learned . Maybe if that had never happened , I would not have made the decision to make that day the beginning of making me my everything . I would put myself first and love me unconditionally . I would no longer doubt my sexiness , ability to run a household or rock my future man ’ s world .
That day was the day I discovered that I was destined for great things . I had tapped into my purpose and loved the feeling . I was ready to take the world by storm and was determined to move any mountain and stomp out any dream killers while strutting my beautiful self down my purpose driven life .
Sassily Yours , Dwon D . Moss