Anger Turned Back On You Interior Monologue Inspired by Alexandre Dumas ’ Count of Monte Cristo
Anger Turned Back On You Interior Monologue Inspired by Alexandre Dumas ’ Count of Monte Cristo
It was February 28th , 1828 , and I was losing my mind . I had been in the decrepit Chateau d ’ If for thirteen years as of that day . Thirteen was the unluckiest number in the world , and the thought of being nowhere near salvation was unbearable . Every year I spend in the Chateau d ’ If , I pray it will be my lucky day of freedom , but when thirteen rolled around , the odds were so against me that I gave up . My only friend , Abbé Faria , was old and paralyzed , and only spoke of a mysterious , non-existent treasure that no one else believed . I was so mad and devastated with my horrendous life that I contemplated asking the jailer to kill me , and maybe even bribing him .
Suddenly , an idea struck me . I couldn ’ t punish God for my misfortune , but I could punish men . Although he had never done anything to me , Faria represented all men , making me eligible to take out my anger on him . Faria was my friend , but he was old and death was on his doorstep , so it didn ’ t really matter ; and after all , I was just going to hurt him , not kill him , I hoped . It was true that I would be lonely afterward , but it would be no different from the ten years of despair without him . I had survived that long , and I could do it again until I was gone , gone through the amazing gates of heaven as I had done nothing wrong . But hopefully , they would realize that before then so I could continue my short life , free in the world . My anger got the best of me once again , and I heard myself scream , “ Abbé Faria ! Abbé Faria ! It is all your fault , Abbé Faria !” while rapidly crawling through the tunnel to Abbé Faria ’ s cell .
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