Siddiq . Upon hearing my reply, he smiled as
I could feel it in his conversation. He explained
the concept of spirituality and bayah and offered
me some time to think about it. I was so affirmed
about being part of this nisbah and strengthening
my spiritual heart that without a second thought,
I surrendered myself to the supervision of Shaykh
Sahab.
Slowly and gradually my heart was changing with
the help of my Shaykh. I started truly respecting
him. Shaykh Sahab started to guide me on the path
of Allah . My goal of life of being a successful
career woman changed to wanting to please
Allah . I realized that whatever I am is because
of Allah .
I started to enjoy, spending more and more time in
the company of my teachers and classmates
because that made me feel like a different person.
It was an indescribable feeling, to sit in the class
and learn the knowledge of deen (Islam). The
happiest moment of my madrasah was when
Shaykh Zulfiqar Ahmad دامت بركاهتمnamed our
madrasah, Nur ul Ilm Academy (Light of
Knowledge).
NISBAH 94
I also cherish the moments, when I was going
through turbulent times, like the loss of my father.
I never asked Allah why this happened to me;
instead I showed patience and accepted Allah’s
decision. I developed a firm belief that everything,
whether good or bad, is determined by Allah
and he who shows patience, Allah rewards
them. The Quran says,
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َ
َو ِإذ ت أَ�ذن َر ُّبك َل ئ ِ� شك ْر تُ� َلز يد َّنك َوَل ئ ِ ن
ْ ُ َ ِ ْ َّ َ ُ ْ ن َ َ ْ أ
�
َ
َّ
ٌ َك َف ْر تُ� إن ع َذا� َلشد
ِ َ ِب ي ِ يد
“When Allah takes something away from you; He
is not punishing you but merely making your hands
empty to receive something better.”
Allah certainly rewarded me and blessed me
with spiritual parents. I did not realize how my
brother’s Shaykh Sahab became my ‘Baba Jaan’ and
‘Aalimah Nadia Sadiq became my ‘Mama Jaan’. I
became part of a spiritual family.
I pray to Allah to always keep me in their
suhbah (company) so that I can become a person
of Ikhlaaq (good character). Ameen.