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INSPIRATION HEALTH gered when we were younger and misinterpreted those thoughts that closed us. Your mind hijacks the sensation of closing (worry, fear, anxiety, and stress) and combines it with its own fabricated evidence to make you believe that it knows what the future holds. It pro-jects as fact what it thinks is going to happen. But in reality, it’s running a habitual program that is repeated over and over in similar situations. If you have done the “Discovering Your Closing Themes” practice on page 80, then you already know that repeating thoughts are currently operating in your life. The practice I’d like you to try now is to write out your feelings. Any time you’re having an emotional experience — whether it feels positive or negative according to your mind — write what you’re feeling. Use the list of emotions provided on page 97 to help you isolate more precisely what you are feeling. Most people are unaware of how they feel, or they have a limited emotional vocabulary. In order to boost your emotional vocabulary, use the list. I recommend that you copy it from this book, or you can go to www.yourinnergps.org/emotionslist and download the list s o that you can post it in several places for reference. The office, fridge, bathroom, and nightstand are good; your car, purse, and wallet are some other great places to access it quickly. When you’re in the midst of, or just over, an emotional experience, sit down with a piece of paper, look at the list, and write out the top three things you’re feeling, such as “I’m feeling frustrated, I’m feeling disappointed, I’m feeling hurt.” Then write out why you’re feeling those three emotions. Just let your mind tell you the story of why you feel the way you do. You don’t have to make it a long story. In fact, it is best if it’s just one or two sentences long. The practice I’d like you to try now is to write out your feelings. Any time you’re having an emotional experience — whether it feels positive or negative according to your mind — write what you’re feeling. Use the list of emotions provided on page 97 to help you isolate more precisely what you are feeling. you have written. Notice whether you are open or closed with each emotion and story. What I have observed is that very often a negative emotional experience gets combined with a sense of closing caused by your IGS. This means what you’re thinking is not true. The thoughts that prompted the closing, if continued, will not bring you to a happy resolution. If you don’t get to the bottom of your thoughts and understand what is closing you, then your mind can actually drive you into a situation you don’t want. Keep this in mind: when you get upset, you can use your emotions as a signal that it’s time to stop and check your IGS. “I’m feeling disappointed because this project was canceled, and it was very important to me. I’m feeling frustrated because it seems to me as if my manager is pulling out the projects that I really enjoy, and he seems to be doing it on purpose. I’m feeling hurt because I work very hard in this world and yet I don’t seem to get the recognition or the rewards that I deserve.” One thing you’ll discover in doing this exercise is that some of those statements will open you. I’ll use the previous example to demonstrate how this may happen. You may get an opening sensation when you say you are disappointed; even though you feel disappointed, you will feel open. Then, when you tell your story about feeling frustrated, you will be closed. What closes you is the claim that the manager is specifically taking projects away from you. The closing means your manager is not undermining you on purpose, so you can drop that line of thinking and move on. The next step — and this is where your IGS comes into play — is to drop into your listening and read back to yourself each of the emotions/stories that The feeling of disappointment, then, is authentic for you, and you can own it: “I have a right to be disappointed. The sensation of opening I feel when I 11 | New Consciousness Review