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Xia Yu comes from Anhui and is engaged in sex “Among our interviewees, work in Beijing. She has breast implants and, in 97% had chosen to leave order to avoid exposing her identity, she contacts their hometown and the her family only infrequently: “I haven’t been home in people and societies with years. I say I’m too busy at work and can’t get away. which they were familiar, When they want to come and visit me, I say, I don’t and were struggling for have time to keep you company.” survival as strangers 79 Female attire and makeup, long hair and breast implants all have to be concealed as much as possible during family visits. Binbin’s methods in the relatively openminded environments of major cities...” are very typical: “Going back home is really inconvenient. I can’t wear makeup. I have to pin back my hair and put it under a hat. I haven’t dared have large breast implants; I’ve kept them small so they can’t be seen under my clothes. When the time comes, I just strap them down and wear loose shirts.”80 Anna, from Hunan, was forced to remove her implants when she went home: “I had implants before. I really wanted to become a woman and be sexier, and m H[\[