See Me
Yungseo Lee
Diligence is good , I was taught , and so Fingers tapped and danced and , I don ’ t know Maybe I did something wrong . It didn ’ t work .
Now I am hungry , I yearn to chew The feel of teeth on teeth - déjà vu ? It ’ s what I have always come back to , mother .
If only , if only you could see me now I swear , you would see exactly just how
Weak my knees are ; I am sinking .
Today the rain is gray and very cold That one little thing I used to hold It rattles and rolls down the drain .
Days like this I think I have always
Spent alone , and only then I could raise The sun from behind those clouds .
Say , there ’ s this song inside my head It sings tears , rusted trash , what they said
Would never amount to anything .
I had a dream where the sky opened itself up All your letters like stale tea in my cup I reject your rejections : stale tea down the drain .
“ I will not bow , I will not break , I will ” Not shut myself up . I know that I go uphill But maybe this time my fingers will not slip .
Today the sun falls light on my shoulders I have found that I am the slightest bit older Just old enough to hold up my umbrella .
If only , if only you could see me now I swear , you would see exactly just how I shine ; how in this moment I am radiant .
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