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happily attend. Essentially, I want to be attractive. Not physically entirely, but I also want to feel interesting, young, relevant. So after some difficult introspection, I’ ve realized I’ ve dumbed down my therapy. I’ m choosing interventions that are fun instead of challenging. I’ ve started sharing more about my personal life. I’ ve jumped to conclusions that clients are infatuated with me because the thought was flattering. And in all of this I think in some ways my efficacy as a therapist has decreased. So now that I’ ve had this realization, I face the challenge of rebuilding my boundaries and reprioritizing my clinical focus, all in a way that doesn’ t feel jarring or disingenuous to my clients. I was truly not prepared for this part of working motherhood, and am reminded how crucial it is to examine countertransference and subconscious motivations!
Sara Joy Kuhlen, MA, MT-BC
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