Where to go?
If you are coping with similiar problems, and you want to talk about it.
On SPOL you can find teens who are
in the same situations as you are.
www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org
You can also call with the Suicide
Prevention Hotline to talk about your
problems. 1 (888) 452 1505
up at the hospital, others sent me text messages, but I didn’t want any kind of contact
with them. I just wanted to lay there, to be
alone and try to understand why I had done
it.
It’s strange to say this: I knew I made everyone worry and that nobody would have ever
expected that from me, but the truth is that
the most surprised person was me. As I said, I
had never had any suicidal thoughts before
and that’s why I got even more angry when
someone, with tears in their eyes, told me
that I could’ve killed myself! I want this to be
clear: to die was not my aim. By using that
razor, I didn’t want to stop living. I just wanted to make everything stop, because I was
so tired of feeling worthless, wrong, a burden
even to myself.
“WELCOME” HOME
I was definitely not expecting what happened when I got home after staying at the
hospital. A friend of mine wrote about what
I had done on my personal blog and even
though I knew she did it to help me see thatthere were people who cared and
supported me, I was angry because I felt
ashamed and I wanted nobody to know
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