just pressed up against the door , sat on the floor , prayed & wished that The Lord could just take my life and carry me to heaven at that moment ; while crying endlessly for 30mins . Phil told me to open the door and he banged on it and was twisting the handle trying to open the door , but it was locked , so he stopped after a while . Then I lay on the floor , hoping I could just die ! ( Heaven is better than this I thought ).
From that day on I said I am tired of it with Phil , I am going to leave him and tell him to give me a divorce because he don ’ t love me . Another day Phil shouted in my face , bucked his forehead on mine and told me he didn ’ t love me , my mom called my phone and it ’ s like The Holy Spirit of God told her something ’ s wrong .
Because immediately she said “ you alright ?”
I cleared up my voice to sound happy , I wiped my tears and said to her “ yeah , why you ask ?”
she said “ I just feel to call you to check up on you .” I said “ OK ”
she said “ you sound like you were crying ? what ’ s wrong ? Phil better don ’ t let I have to go down there !”
I said “ NO mommy don ’ t do that , am alright ”
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