just pressed up against the door, sat on the floor, prayed & wished that The Lord could just take my life and carry me to heaven at that moment; while crying endlessly for 30mins. Phil told me to open the door and he banged on it and was twisting the handle trying to open the door, but it was locked, so he stopped after a while. Then I lay on the floor, hoping I could just die!( Heaven is better than this I thought).
From that day on I said I am tired of it with Phil, I am going to leave him and tell him to give me a divorce because he don’ t love me. Another day Phil shouted in my face, bucked his forehead on mine and told me he didn’ t love me, my mom called my phone and it’ s like The Holy Spirit of God told her something’ s wrong.
Because immediately she said“ you alright?”
I cleared up my voice to sound happy, I wiped my tears and said to her“ yeah, why you ask?”
she said“ I just feel to call you to check up on you.” I said“ OK”
she said“ you sound like you were crying? what’ s wrong? Phil better don’ t let I have to go down there!”
I said“ NO mommy don’ t do that, am alright”
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