Are all men like this ?
I have been with my boyfriend for almost three years . Basically from the moment we met we knew we wanted to spend the rest of our lives together . I graduated college and moved in with him . It did not take me long to find the porn under his entertainment stand . I didnt expect it to hurt as much as it did ( in my other serious relationship I knew he watched porn and didnt care ). But this boyfriend is different .
We both agreed immediately that sex with each other was the best we ever had . I could see no reason that he would need porn now that we lived together and were having great sex all the time . I confronted him and he said he hadn ’ t watched that stuff in months and when I was at school he masturbated to me . Well I didnt believe that , but I let it go and just made him promise to get rid of the porn .
About a month later I found a porn video in the player . - Which he said had been in there for a long time . I knew it was a lie because we had watched a video not long ago . Anyway , porn kept turning up every few weeks and another lie would follow . After that
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I would catch him masturbating to Cinemax when he thought I was sleeping . Finally , one night I couldn ’ t hold back the tears . That night he didnt deny it and explained to me that he likes porn in a purely animalistic way . He doesn ’ t really want those girls and never thinks about them when we are together . He said it was just an old habit and he would stop because of how insecure it was making me ( I had totally stopped initiating sex by this point and was starting to not like my body ). I told him that I don ’ t care if he masturbates sometimes , but we agreed that there would be no more getting off to images of other women .
The porn disappeared from our lives for about a year after that . Then after I had gone away for a week I came back to find a porno tucked behind my dresser . I was very upset and all the insecure feelings returned . The worse part was that he denied it was his - UM - Okay ... He still denies it to this day , though I don ’ t see what the point is . Another few months have gone by and I recently checked our internet history just out of curiosity because he hasn ’ t wanted sex lately and it has been