through devastating moments . Without His protective hand around our wounded hearts , we would shatter into a million pieces .
When Marcus finally made it home , he entered through the back door , calling out , “ Tricks , are you here ?” He called me Tricks because I liked to jump out and scare him sometimes and was always pulling tricks on him . He walked into the living room still wearing his golfing gear , smiling like he ’ d shot under par . “ Hey , let ’ s watch —” Marcus always had something he wanted us to watch together . But I interrupted him .
“ I need to talk to you , Marcus ,” I said . “ It ’ s important .” He sensed the seriousness in my tone and sat down . There was an awkward silence . I may have been trembling .
“ What is it ?” he asked .
“ I know what ’ s going on ,” I said .
A look of shock mixed with panic crossed his face . “ What are you talking about ?”
“ I know about ...” I answered , and I said her name . “ I ’ ve seen the emails .”
Marcus just dropped his head .
“ How in the world could this happen to us ?” I asked . Again , what ’ s amazing is that the Lord gave me supernatural , sustaining peace bigger than what was going on in the natural . You have to understand , I was one of those people who ’ d always said , “ If he ever did that , I would divorce him in a heartbeat .” But that ’ s not what happened at all . I didn ’ t condemn him or yell and scream ; there was just a calm from the Lord . Now , later on , I would yell and scream , but in that moment , there was calmness . In my spirit , I knew the Lord would navigate us through this storm .
“ I ’ m so sorry ,” Marcus said . “ I had no idea how to get out of this , and I was afraid to tell you .” We stayed up all night crying as I made Marcus recount every little detail , which was stupid . I wanted to know everything , and it was hard , but he told me everything . “ I felt like I was on a roller coaster going a hundred miles per hour and I couldn ’ t get off ,” he told me . “ I felt like I was just barely hanging on and thought
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