#Alumni Speaks
stockist would not yield the result I want. The
salesman was required to listen to me because of the
hierarchy and he would but only out of sheer
compulsion and not persuasion. I was supposed to
act as the leader for the other, relatively new,
salesman but seemed to be doing a dismal job.
Frequent arguments would happen between him
and the Super-Stockist and though I should have
been the intermediary the reconciliatory between the
two, I was too intimidated by the latter to interfere.
Things reached such a point, where I would be asked
to walk-out of the room and I would. I have never felt
so embarrassed in my life.
One evening after another one of those arguments,
the salesman told me what I had long known but was
never brave enough to say it out to myself. I cave-in to
the Super-stockist. Repeatedly. I was not strong
enough. I was living in denial where I would hide my
insecurities and overlook them with the perks the job
offered. Facing the mirror for the first time, I was
shattered. Here was a guy, who would not think twice
before standing up for what he believed in finding it
difficult to even stand up for himself. I was hurt,
deeply hurt. I remember as I stood in front of my
house that day, I wondered was this why I cam