Huffington Magazine Issue 73 | Page 33

Voices everything right, I thought — I followed the rules, made good grades, worked hard, and took care of my body. Overnight, my career was derailed, my two degrees seemed worthless, and my dreams of soccer games were crushed. I struggled with the unfairness of it all. I didn’t want my daughter to have to struggle; I didn’t want to be the odd man out at playdates and birthday parties; I didn’t want us to stand out like a sore thumb and field questions about what was “wrong” with her everywhere we went. When I was able to be grateful, however, I was thankful for the one thing I had hoped and prayed for before she was born: she was smart. When I thought about how Sarah Kate will always struggle with actions most people take for granted, like running and jumping, I reassured myself that she might never earn a sports scholarship, but she’d be sure to earn an academic one. When she was only 4, at an evaluation to determine whether or not her developmental delays would qualify her for services, the special education administrator noted that she thought Sarah Kate was probably gifted. ANDI SLIGH HUFFINGTON 11.03.13 I was proud that my daughter would also be The Smart Kid. Then my son, Nathan, was born. We enjoyed a few moments of ignorant bliss after his birth before we learned what the doctors suspected — he had Down syndrome. As with Sarah Kate’s diagnosis of cerebral palsy, Nathan’s diagnosis of Down syndrome was a blow. I couldn’t un- As with Sarah Kate’s diagnosis of cerebral palsy, Nathan’s diagnosis of Down syndrome was a blow. I couldn’t understand why God would send us not one, but two, children with disabilities.” derstand why God would send us not one, but two, children with disabilities. It seemed almost a cruel joke on me, because the one thing I was certain Nathan would never be was smart. It took four decades for me to accept that success and achievement in the way our society views them are not only not essential, but also not important.