Huffington Magazine Issue 64-65 | Page 67

HUFFINGTON 09.01-08.13 INVISIBLE CASUALTIES Among active-duty troops, the war years have seen a persistent rise in suicides. 35k 30k All-Active Duty 25k 20k Army 15k Marines 10k 2011 2010 2009 2008 2007 2006 2005 2004 2003 2002 2001 Active-duty troop suicides per 100,000 15 10 5 0 2011 2010 2009 2008 2007 2006 2005 2004 2003 2002 2001 handle this, there isn’t anything really wrong with me. I didn’t want to show weakness,” he said. He’d get together with his Guard buddies and the subject of mental stress never came up — even though, he found out later, they were all having the same issues. They just wouldn’t admit them to each other. Mike’s trouble started slowly at first. Memory lapses. Fits of pointless anger. Anxiety attacks that left him gasping on the floor. Occasional screaming nightmares. He couldn’t shake the memory of his convoy getting ambushed outside Baghdad; a fuel truck had caught fire and Iraqi bystanders burned to death. He was in charge, responsible for getting his guys out of a trap. In his tortured dreams he could see other Iraqis screaming, faces contorted, shaking their fists at him, as he pushed the convoy forward past the wreckage. All this got bad one night close to Christmas 2005, when he’d been home a year. Something threw him into a black fury. He punched holes in the wall, tipped over the Christmas tree and ripped up furniture while his wife, Jackie, and their boys scampered an alarming rise NOTE: DOES NOT INCLUDE NON-ACTIVE NATIONAL GUARD AND RESERVE PERSONNEL. COMPARABLE U.S. CIVILIAN POPULATION SUICIDES, ADJUSTED FOR AGE, SEX AND RACE, AVERAGE 2001-2006: 19.1 PER 100,000. SOURCE: 2011 DEPARMENT OF DEFENSE SUICIDE EVENT REPORT