Huffington Magazine Issue 34 | Page 68

LEFT OUT thought a change of scenery might help her transcend her grief. There, she worked in a department store. But after a year, Johnson’s mother persuaded her to return to Louisiana in the hopes that she would resume her studies. She came home but could not find the motivation to return to classes. Instead, she took a job as a dietician at a nursing home, planning the meals, earning about $1,000 a month, she says. “I just didn’t want to go back to school,” she said. “It was the beginning of a downward spiral. I feel like I should have gone back to college and my life would be better.” Over the subsequent decades, Johnson attended to elderly people in nursing homes and in private residences, delivering meals and medication, emptying bedpans and changing seats. Most of those jobs paid minimum wage. None included health insurance. “It didn’t bother me,” she said, “because I never was sick.” But as the years passed, the minor ailments to which a person can grow accustomed burgeoned into life-threatening conditions. Her feet and ankles swelled, and so did her face, in what her doctors would HUFFINGTON 02.03.13 later conclude was a likely manifestation of thyroid problems. Her left side felt increasingly heavy. Even as pain and worry became constant, she did not consult a doctor for two simple reasons: She didn’t have health insurance, and she didn’t have money. At her last job before she collapsed, she was bringing home about $400 every other week, she says. The rent on her brick-faced “MEDICAID IS A SYSTEM OF INFLEXIBLE MANDATES, ONE-SIZE FITS-ALL REQUIREMENTS AND WASTEFUL, BUREAUCRATIC INEFFICIENCIES.” apartment on the edges of town ran $575 a week. Her utilities absorbed another $300 a month. “I just lived paycheck to paycheck,” she said. “How you going to go to the doctor with no money?” In her town in northern Louisiana, Johnson did not lack for company. Nurtured more than a century ago by cotton farming, Ruston is home today to some 22,000 people — more than a third of them living at or below poverty, according to census data. Its compact downtown is dotted by markers of inadequate finance, from the payday lenders and pawn shops that dominate the strip