Huffington Magazine Issue 22 | Page 75

HUFFINGTON 11.11.12 NO WAY OUT homeless shelter that had been set up temporarily, just for the winter months. When spring came, she pitched a tent in a makeshift encampment carved into a slice of scraggly brush set between railroad tracks and an abandoned warehouse. She bought a barbecue grill at a dollar store, using it to grill chicken and pork chops she procured with food stamps. Her restroom was the bushes or the public facilities at the Community Kitchen, the social service agency nearby. She contended with ticks, spider bites, and the men in tents all around her, who were prone to drunken fights and petty theft. They stole clothing, bicycles, food and even toothbrushes, she says. One of them once sneaked into her tent seeking sex, she says, and she had to fight him off. Someone swiped her cell phone, which had all the phone numbers she valued in the world, including those of her four stepsisters. Her cheeks burnt pink by the sun and her blond hair pulled back into a rough ponytail, Smith conveys a sense that she is prepared to protect herself. “I can take an ass-whooping as much as I can give an ass-whooping,” she says. But after two months in the tent, she could bear it no longer. She took refuge in a vacant house that had been lost to foreclosure, a place lacking both water and power. She lights candles, cooks on her grill, and cadges buckets of water from unsuspecting neighbors, tapping their garden hoses “EVERYTHING THAT I REALLY HAVE TO HAVE IN MY LIFE IS IN THIS BOOK BAG.” when they are away, in order to flush the toilet. “This is humiliating to me,” Smith says. “It’s embarrassing to be in this situation. How in the hell did this happen?” This is a purely rhetorical question. Smith has been homeless before, and she has struggled with drug addiction — crack cocaine in particular — which devoured her life in Atlanta, where she worked as an installer for a local telephone company, earning some $60,000 a year. “I met this guy,” she says, the preamble to a tangled story that involves losing her four-bedroom home, her job and