HUFFINGTON
10.07.12
NINA BERMAN / NOOR /REDUX
MIRACLE BABIES
she and her husband were preparing to start another cycle to
try for a second child, Kari found
out she was pregnant, naturally.
She is due in December.
Her reaction to the news surprised her. “My first feeling was
that I was angry. I was angry that
this was happening after everything we had been through,” Kari
said. “My feeling was, ‘We’re going to end up having a miscarriage.’ I was like, ‘This isn’t fair.
How is this happening?’”
When she got pregnant with her
son, Kari was already on several
medications to help prevent miscarriage; this time she was not.
Though she and her husband are
“over the moon” and “beyond excited” about the prospect of having another baby, that joy is tempered by the fear that her body
will fail her, as well as the guilt
she feels about being able to have
a second baby naturally when so
many women cannot.
As an alum of the IVF world,
her feelings about pregnancy —
natural or otherwise — are defined
by the turmoil of the process. “I
just wanted to have a pregnancy I
could enjoy, a normal pregnancy
where I wasn’t scared all the time,”
Kari said. “This was supposed to
be that pregnancy for me, but it
hasn’t been. I’m still in complete
shock and disbelief that
this is really happening.”
Egg donors are
listed by vital
characteristics
such as eye
and hair color,
height, weight,
ethnicity,
religion and
educational
background.
Some eggs
cost more than
the standard
rate because a
donor may have
more desirable
characteristics.