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Chapter: Deliberate Meanderings
If truth be told, I a m homeless to the degree I identify with no
persuasion or political affinity, all my interpersonal relationships
are based on utilitarian pre mises, and I seem to lug myself around
against my better ins tincts to lay around in bed and drea m my life
away. My stay in USA was a flight of fancifulness and my
departure from Safrascity after seven weeks was left to the
accumulation of circumstances, imp ulsive aspirations and a sign
that the prevailing forces op pose my being there. A swami who I
had taught English had told me the sagacious advice, "I AM" is
the form that soul essence has to assume in order to be part of
physical existence. Wherever I AM in now -here land, I AM has a
uniqueness of never before and even nevermore. Im2/Ur1 (placing
the significant other above one's own ego) essence is stillness, the
imprint of Creation, silence of essence not able to be
comprehended in physiological parameters. Motion is the
universal language and it all returns to the silence.
In certain literary circles, authors are praised for coming up
with new words or phrases, and though I take liberty to do so, it's
not for the praise of the phrase. I often can't find terms to
communicate the ideas raging in my brain and put words togethe r
that feel as if they do. The seclusion to which I've withdraw n
provides an atmosphere whereby I filter out extraneous opinions ;
and exert intellectual contemplation to arrive at the true
impressions of my deepest thoughts. I can't always know how
anybody may relate to these intellectual meanderings, but fee l
certain they should be heard. Th is process has given title to this
literary composition: Internal Expansion Uniquely. Although
revolutionary ideas can engender animosity, a seed of thought set
to nourishment can grow into ideas . People who I've respected
have told me I'm crazy; almost all my life, but lately I find it
preferable to being identified with the normalcy of my
conte mporaries.
When our emotions are put to the test of mentality ove r
physicality it is the expectation from within that causes reality to
become oppressive, guilt trips and the like. S uch impulses can be
restrained only in nullification, frustration avoided co mpletely
only through dis mantling of expectations. From anger a nd
arrogance, one may find refuge. Contrarily, the smallest baby step
beyond the precipice leads to the Inferno of torturous insecurity,
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