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really strangers so long as I AM connect s to no reality. I noticed
a fallout effect of Urban Aggravation of modern society, a person
without purpose who day after day projects himself into the
waking life with a feeling of forfeit. The strange occurrences of a
homeless being that has habituated itself into a prevailing reality.
Once upon a time people had a conversation with one another
about nothing as they helped one another pass their time feeling a
sense of goodness, personal importance, worth as a human being.
There was a moral ethic connected with the idea of huma n
kindness.
In the arousal fro m a self-degradation into a respecting huma n
being, I seek the lofty expectations . To each and every day do
something to share a sense of happiness, if only to s mile at
someone. I thereby improve the unive rse as it abides together with
me during a mo ment of increased happiness. Maybe these thoughts
shed light on the human condition of a (grumpy) lonely perso n
thinking e verybody else is selfish for doing nothing to help him
(when in need of a hand from someone). May I defer to the dyin g
words of my father, who admitted to having borrowed more
heavily fro m the world than his ability to return the benefits that
had accrued to him? Pain is the imagined condition that brings
humans into contact with caregivers; grumpiness enables them to
effect improve ment of prevailing circumstances.
Upon my return to Safrascity fro m East Bay, I resumed my
posture being ready at AB(TruBlu)'s beck, but behind his back sent
out feelers in a direction that would enable me to extend my stay
in SF without being dependent on him. He had clearly e mphasized
during our preflight discussions that his wife didn't want me in
their home. During that last of the three-weeks' time, I cleaned and
organized the garage space that served as his warehouse; we had
to take two pickup truck loads of garbage to the city dump. He
rediscovered many valuable ite ms but uttered not a word of thanks .
I, however, had satisfied my co mmitment to work off the cost of
my flight tickets. The personality of greed allows one to express
no gratitude lest it bring one to further commitment that may lead
to expenditure of resources (or emotion).
People are wont to praise anything bec ause their greed de mands
they get what they want because they deserve it and once theirs;
they assert their right to share nothing with anyone. I took each
week as it came, had arranged the office nicely, and improved the
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