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stress, I perform like a Swiss watch. These feelings are laden wit h
the viciousness of bad dreams and by inscribing them on paper;
they can be kept under lock and key.
Decades of effort have I invested in the hope of distinguishing
my connection to living beings ! What I have determined is that
communication is conducted by Electromagnetic (EM) waves
passing into the sense organs of people . The sound of organic
substance such as leaves, the winds rustling the leaves, birdsong
travelling through space all enter into my realm of perception as
sound particles posing as increments of time, floating into a
distance that see ms to stimulate memories stored within me. I so
much want to think well of myself I try to explain it over and over,
but has also been a project of rehab to take myself apart limb b y
limb until each piece can be reassembled into a whole that
expresses consistent ethical value inwardly and outwardly. In
laymen tongue, one might say I screwed up but I'm dying to make
amends through charitable act and righteous pursuits.
I'm not agreeable to exist unless for the well-being of others,
the goodness that has beco me characteristic of those with who m
shared. Giving of myself in every action and thought is an exertio n
of the relativity constant in the equation of mass squared, the
result being time, ergo eternity, in this form will me mory cells
preserve in a future. There's no roo m in my character for darkness,
death -anger, or degradation; only light and happiness, Evil is a
simple propensity with minimal longevity. Repression cannot
change behavior for the better. Education de mands patient
investment of strength and talents. W hat corporal punishment ma y
achieve is that certain behaviors considered offensive may be
brought to a cessation, whereas their propensity to occur beco mes
strengthened. To what may this be likened? Hitting children for
being aggressive, trains them to understand that violence ma y
cause pain. Pain is a weapon, not an educational tool.
During the time invested in authoring "A Father's Unceasing
Love," I felled myself fro m upon the fa ce of the earth and in
faithfulness displaced my negative emotions to a place where the y
dissipated. I beca me a giant to my own thinking, the time of my
existence actually spanning many decades, nay generations. That
sense may be arrived at through alcohol and mind -altering
influences, reality no longer affirmable to the mind. The matter
under interrogation is whethe r the experience of huma n
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