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between the m. According to the principle of binary physics where
silence is positive one - zero a level of disruption in the harmony
and input causes a percussion of energy identify ing the extant o f
its presence. Where prese nce is no longer definable by physica l
para meters, yet purpose re mains consistent, so the form and
character of my interrelationships during those decades is included
within I AM.
In 1973, I traveled to Israel as a potential immigrant, and in '83
returned, for good, as father of four with their mother in tow. My
attempted escape in the winter of 2007, included thought to
reverse the whole process of acclimation and settlement of all the
king's horses and all the king's men. I had left my house an earlier
than planned; bye, bye nobody, only I knew that I would depart
with no socialistic or fa milial frills of goodbyes. These me mories
are miniscule but significant when recalled in detailed proportio n
as imprinted on my memory. The story is worth repeating,
recollection of its content able to simulate the drama, as an
exercise to draw attention to the herein recorded verba l
expressions. What attention do I seek for bringing up having acted
in that way?
As I record this information, I glance foggily through the c louds
of internal expansion uniquely hoping to arrive a clear summatio n
of I AM. For one, when they whom important to me realize how
they never knew me, how shall I weep and wail about that? Good,
only for the very instant we feel the sensations caused by silent
sound waves echoing in our brain, and the response they trigger in
the mentality. Shed a few tears and refurbish myself with a
strengthened intent to live fully whom, what, and how I AM. To
instigate me mories of visual scenes is strenuous , which is why we
enjoy artistic representation, photographs and videos. Ye t, despite
lack of detailed stimulation aroused by simple thought waves,
there exist ethereal signals that broadcast a message to the centra l
processing mechanis m of the brain. Our minds compu te thought
that vanishing into a far distance is then forgotten.
As repeated already a number of time, these literary endeavors
provide me private friendship with the troubleso me past that I
enacted in the accounts written here. The effort to record the m for
posterity may or may not serve as a legacy to my children in the
all-time everywhere; culture the human soul can nourish in eac h
individual. Artists before my time offered approbation in their
painting of strea ms and natural beauty appreciat ive of the world
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