His Heart Scribe Inspirations Devotional Magazine January 2014 January Issue 2014

thrown in ignorance and anger. I shelter you from the storms and I shield you from your fears. (Continued from page 10) I would look into the mirror and the person looking back was not me. I was lost somewhere in this body. I would scream at the image pleading for the "ME" I used to be. I knew I was in there, somewhere, lost. I was fighting for my sanity and fighting for my life. I knew I would never be pretty again … I am your friend ... I walk with you daily and live in your thoughts. I feed off your failures, I revel in your guilt. I thrive on your shame and dance with your deceit. I keep you in darkness and take pleasure in your pain. I delight in your loneliness and wallow in your sins. I laugh when you flounder and strike when you stumble. Shanna got out … Many don’t! I am your friend ... “I made the decision to stop putting meth into my body. On week 2 of being clean God lifted the desire and I have never and will never use again.” I relish in your anger and worship in your pride. I feed off your compulsion and dwell in your isolation. I am familiar with your weaknesses and abuse your denial. I treasure your resentment and take comfort in your depression. I am your friend ... My name is— "Your Disease." I am your friend ... I hold out my hand and bring you faith. I award you serenity and selfesteem. I bestow upon you peace and acceptance. I wrap you in love and tender the shield of knowledge. I volunteer humility and shower you with confidence. I bequeath spiritual growth, emotional advancement and physical revival. I am your friend … The only true companion you have. I am with you when you are lonely; I am with you when you are sad. I am with you when you feel withdrawn and when the world is cruel. I hide the heckler's words and block the missiles (Continued on page 18) 11

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