HIMPower Magazine April Issue | Page 18

PERSONAL EMPOWERMENT ASK THE CAREER EXPERT When the Challenge Fights with Confidence by Hope LeNoir Hope LeNoir I have never, ever had my confidence shaken. Ever. But that day was different. I was called aside by a very high level leader to tell me I was underperforming. That. Blew. Me. Away. “Why did they tell you and not me?” I asked. The leader went on to explain I used to be a part of his group, so they believed I would take the feedback better from him. He continued to offer me my old job back and attempted to explain how valuable I was in my old job. My heart dropped. My confidence was crushed. Why wasn’t I as in tune to my surroundings as I had always 18  HimPower April 2017 been? Why didn’t my current leaders come directly to me with any feedback they felt I should receive? Was I missing my goals? Was my performance so low that I couldn’t even recognize it? Even more so, was I even supposed to be here? I was shaken like no other event in my entire life, recognizably that is. I felt small. I felt stupid. I felt misplaced. I felt the confi- dence and faith I had before was fake. All of the successes I thought I owned were nonex- istent, but then I was taken out of myself. Luckily, I asked a young woman to be my unofficial mentor a few weeks earlier. That day I got the troubling news, I emailed her