HG Matters Issue 4 | Page 7

I fear that, like last time, no medicine will work unless in conjunction with an IV. I am even more scared that it might be even worse than last time; a fact I know is entirely possible. People try to reassure me, saying that I might not have HG, but with the odds stacked against me, I prepare for the worst. What practical lessons did I learn last pregnancy that I will take with me into pregnancy number two? As I lay on the floor after throwing up for what must have been the fifteenth time that day, I looked up at my husband with desperate eyes. He had turned around from his morning commute to work after I called and begged for him to stay by my side. “Do not ever let me have another baby,” I said with the utmost urgency and seriousness. I was exhausted—mentally, physically, emotionally. It’s that moment that sticks in my mind almost two years later. My little Adelaide is a happy, loving fifteen-month-old. She is more than I ever expected or asked for in a little bundle of joy. Now and then I catch “baby fever”, but it is that moment of desperation, lying on the bathroom floor that gives me pause when thinking about baby number two. 1. Find a doctor with HG experience and stick with them The first half of my last pregnancy was spent searching for a doctor or midwife that understood me and what I was going through. I want to go into my next pregnancy knowing I have an advocate on my side, willing to fight with and for me, especially in regard to insurance coverage and home health care. 2. Come right out of the gate with information for family and friends Knowing I have an official diagnosis will help explain to family and friends exactly what is going on. I intend to blog and post often about my journey. I avoided that last time because (other than the fact I couldn’t really sit and type) I felt like I was a big baby about morning sickness. After all, everyone goes through it, right? With my very last semester quickly approaching, Jon, and I have begun to talk about when, and even if, baby number 2 will come. My eyes tear up even as I write this thinking that I do not want to go through HG again. I am scared. I am scarred. 2 5 3 Continued…