HG Matters Issue 2 | Page 10

HyperG Pregnancy Podcast: Hyperemesis Gravidarum | Morning Sickness | Pregnancy Stories | Alternative Treaments By Rachel Dewell: Mother of 5, RN-BSN, Hyperemesis Gravidarum Survivor I had never heard the words, Hyperemesis Gravidarum, until I was googling, ‘extreme morning sickness’ one day. I was always searching for answers. I couldn’t understand why my experience was so much worse than everyone elses. Why was I the only one? Have you ever had one of those conversations, where you start by testing the waters and say “I get sick when I’m pregnant.” And the other person says, “Oh, yes, so do I.” And then you press further, “I mean, I get really sick. I threw up every day.” “Me, too.” they say. “I couldn’t eat or get out of bed without throwing up.” Ah, you think, this is one of them. They know. “I lost twenty pounds. It was just awful.” You say, looking for validation. You just want someone to understand. “Yeah, but you’ve just got to push through. Thank God for crackers, right?” And there it is, the hole. The crack in the understanding. She’s on one side and you’re on the other. She didn’t know. You are alone again. My fourth pregnancy was the worst of my five pregnancies. She’s also my only girl, so that makes her extra special. I had just started to crawl out of the hole that is HG. I was about 16 or 17 weeks along. I had been sick since 7 weeks. I had lost 20 pounds, thrown up daily and felt faint just getting up to go to the bathroom once a day. I thought it would never end. It was a Sunday. My husband had taken the kids with him to church. I got up to try to find something to eat. I saw a tomato sitting on the counter and decided to try it. I sliced it up and sprinkled salt on top. Then I sat down and raised a bite to my lips. As soon as I tasted it, I started crying. It was the first time since getting sick that anything had tasted good - that anything had tasted like food. I just sat there with tears streaming down my face, while eating that whole tomato. For the first time, I finally felt hope. 9 Continued on page 10