for and about today’s youth
from Timothy Ministries-The True Son & accompanying blog, The Maiden’s Portion
Sui-cide: The act of taking one's own life voluntarily and intentionally by a person of
years of discretion and of sound mind.
Is there anyone out there who has a dark cloud hanging over them? Is that dark cloud in
the form of lonely life, being bullied, or any negative situation or circumstance going on
right now? I know how you feel.....I went through the same feelings, both as a teenager
and as an adult.
I was a very lonely teenager....had a large family; lots of cousins, but no real friends. I
grew up in a very small mountain community, and that did not help. Seven times in my
early teenage years my sister took a butcher knife out of my hands. To me, a stab in the
heart would do the job. She never told my parents, and of course, neither did I.
I made it through high school, then married soon after. Leaving the little mountain
community was a temporary solution to the depression. I went on with my life~had
children, divorced, worked two jobs, and entered into another abusive relationship. In
March, 2004, I decided I'd had enough of the abuse, and 144 pills-2 days in ICU-7 days in
the psych ward later, I felt much better. The doctors said I should have died, but God had a
bigger purpose.
Ultimately, all I was looking for was love and acceptance, none of which I got growing up
except from my paternal grandparents. All this time~since I was 14 years old~I knew who
my Savior was....but I was searching for 'my purpose' in the wrong places. After this
attempt, my life changed drastically....and has continued to improve in leaps and bounds.
All I had to do was put Him first.
My challenge to any who are
thinking about or considering this
permanent solution to a temporary
problem to seek help. Not just the
help that will put you on medicines
that will 'regulate' you. Seek the
Great Physician that can repair
ALL the damage, no matter where
it comes from. Whether it is from
child
molestation
(which
I
suffered) unloving parents (me
again) no positive role models in
my peer group (ditto), a change
will come if you sincerely seek it
from Him. You can be alive again,
in a way that you never thought or
imagined. Before you consider
taking your own life, give Him a
chance.
photo courtesy of Suicide-Wikipedia
by Rebecca Matthews/read more at The Maiden's Portion
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