Young Christian Mom
by Rachel Dills
So, he finally got a job at some sort of calling company. But, now since we were both working we needed a
babysitter. His brother was staying with us so he said he would watch him in return for him living there. Well that
was short lived. I came back from work one evening to find my son standing in the window of his room crying while
his babysitter was sleeping. My son was in the same diaper I had put him in that morning and he had barely eaten
all day. Furious is an understatement to what I felt. I immediately quit my jobs and kicked out the brother. My son’s
well-being was more important than me working.
But now that meant that he was the only one making money and so bills weren’t getting paid. He was spending his
money on other things he deemed more important. I later found out most of those things were pills, alcohol, and
other assortments of drugs.
When I was home alone with my son was the only time I felt happy. As soon as he came back from work, everything
changed. I didn’t do things I should have done. I even mentioned to him that since I wasn’t working now that I could
go to school. His reply was that I was too stupid to attend college. So I put college out of my mind.
So this went on for a few months. But things weren’t getting any better. They were getting so much worse. One
night I was alone with my son. He had told me that he was going to hang out with a couple of friends. It was about
midnight and I heard a knock on the door. When I opened it there stood his brother. He proceeded to tell me that his
brother was cheating on me at that very moment. I asked him to stay with my son for a few minutes. (He was
sleeping so I knew he would be okay.) I found out where his brother was and ran all the way there. I had been there
before so I knew the place and it was fairly close to where I was living. I walk in through the door to find him high
on the couch with a half-naked girl. This girl was also an escort. He was high and didn’t even fully understand what
was going on. I said a few words and told him to drive me back then he could do whatever he wanted.
When we got back he gave me some stupid excuse and then started making me feel guilty when I mentioned leaving
him. He talked about how we had a child together and we needed to stay in this relationship for him. I finally
agreed that’s what was best for my son, and at the time I thought so. I thought maybe he would change for this
child. But I was so, so wrong.
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