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AWAKE AND PRAYING

The Personal Journey of a Grieving Gramma

by: Judy Hinton

August 20, 2011 I dreamed I was in a strange house with people I did not know. There were 3

men talking to me but I did not know what they were saying. I do remember they told me to walk outside to a storage shed. When I walked into this storage shed I immediately noticed a box of crosses. At the bottom of this box there was a Precious Moments cross and I picked it up. When I awoke from this dream I was puzzled. Why would I choose that Precious Moments cross? It had a baby on it. Little did I know that the dream was a blessing and a forewarning.

“Mom, Keagan’s not breathing and he’s in an ambulance!” Those words came in a phone call on September 3, 2010 at 4:11a.m.from my youngest daughter, Heather.

Keagan was my youngest grandson and just 33 days old, absolutely perfect and healthy. As I rushed out of bed to get my clothes on I screamed at God and said God please don’t take him!

When my daughter got pregnant with Keagan I knew it would be a trying pregnancy. She has endometriosis stage 4 and in the first 4 months of her pregnancy she almost mis-carried him.

So, I questioned God. Oh yes, I QUESTIONED GOD! Why would HE let Keagan be born after almost losing him just to take him away so suddenly?

I Corinthians13:12 NLT Now we see things imperfectly like puzzling reflections in a mirror, but then we will see everything with perfect clarity. All that I know now is partial and incomplete, but then I will know everything completely, just as God now knows me completely.