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Although cutting may provide some temporary relief from a terrible feeling, even people who cut agree that it isn’t a good way to get that relief People don’t usually intend to hurt themselves permanently when they cut What Can Happen to People Who Cut? Although cutting may provide some temporary relief from a terrible feeling, even people who cut agree that it isn’t a good way to get that relief. For one thing, the relief doesn’t last. The troubles that triggered the cutting remain - they’re just masked over. People don’t usually intend to hurt themselves permanently when they cut. They don’t usually mean to keep cutting once they start. Both can happen. It’s possible to misjudge the depth of a cut, making it so deep that it requires stitches. Cuts can become infected if a person uses non sterile or dirty cutting instruments - razors, scissors, pins or even the sharp edge of the tab on a can of soda. Most people who cut aren’t attempting suicide. Cutting is usually a person’s attempt at feeling better, not ending it all. Although some people who cut do attempt suicide, it’s usually because of the emotional problems and pain that lie behind their desire to self-harm, not the cutting itself. Cutting can be habit forming. It can become a compulsive behavior meaning that the more a person does it, the more he or she feels the need to do it. The brain starts to connect the false sense of relief from bad feelings to the act of cutting and it craves this relief the next time tension builds. When cutting becomes a compulsive behavior, it can seem impossible to stop. Cutting can seem almost like an addictions, where the urge to cut can seem too hard to resist. A behavior that starts as an attempt to feel more in control can end up controlling you. How Does Cutting Start? Cutting often begins on an impulse. It’s not something the person thinks about ahead of time. Shauna says, “It starts when something’s really upsetting and you don’t know how to talk about it or what to do. You can’t get your mind off feeling upset and your body has this know of emotional pain. Before you know it, you’re cutting yourself. Then somehow, you’re in another place. Then, the next time you feel awful about something, you try it again - and slowly it becomes a habit. Natalie, a high-school junior who started cutting in middle school, explains that it was a way to distract herself from feelings of rejection and helplessness she felt she couldn’t bear.