GIRL POWER OCTOBER 2013 | Page 17

What if Making Your Dreams Come True Doesn’t Make You Happier? Lisa Selow www.michellephillipsblog.com The sales person was kind to me, asking me if I needed help. I was taking my time, which has become a normal thing for me as I heal myself of chronic fatigue syndrome. Rushing around just isn’t an option any more. She looked down at the dark bluish bruise on my right arm, blurted out, “Oh my gosh! How’d you get that bruise?” I smiled as she apologized for asking a personal question. I said, “It’s okay. I don’t mind sharing. I’ve been getting some intravenous nutrients the past two months. We couldn’t get the needle in my right arm last week, so I’m a bit bruised. I asked if we could try another vein and it didn’t work. Luckily, we found a vein in my left arm.” I explained about my turning to integrative medicine again to heal chronic fatigue since it had worked for me in the late 1990s during my first bout of the illness. It turned out that the sales woman had a family member with similar challenges. Really, there’s no coincidences. It made sense why I had shared so personally with a complete stranger. Maybe some of my journey could help her loved one, I reasoned. The sales woman was curious about how I ended up getting sick. I didn’t want to keep her from doing her job, so I told her I’d give her the short version. I said I made a dream come true of getting my book published and I worked myself to the max for two years. I explained how I neglected my own self-care at times and how I became emotionally upset to the point of making myself ill. We ended up having a deep conversation about the price we think we need to pay to make our dreams a reality. We both decided that maybe it could be fun or even easy next time around. I smiled as I walked out of the store. Even though most days the past year I’ve been faced with two or three symptoms each day of varying degrees such as insomnia, digestive challenges, fatigue, soreness, migraines and mild depression, I have hope. I know that I’ve healed myself before. I’ve been doing my best to see this recent health challenge as a gift. I figure there’s some things I’m learning. I’ve been able to return to my passions and hobbies, self-care and learning how to relax again. My inner teacher knows there’s lessons that I can pass along to help others. Some of these lessons have revealed themselves to me. I share the main ones learned so far here with you: Sometimes, making your dreams come true doesn’t make you happier 1. Sometimes, making your dreams come true doesn’t make you happier. As someone who’s creative, sensitive, and a perfectionist, I push myself really hard. I’m hard on myself to do well and please others, along with my intention to be of service to others on the planet. Talk about pressure! I’ve learned that it’s so important to enjoy the process, not just the result. In hindsight, I see that I would have been much less stressed had I just enjoyed the simple pleasures of writing and marketing my book, instead of worrying about making it all perfect. The cost was not only my health, but my inner peace. I’m working on reclaiming both. 2. If you help even one person, you’ve done your part. Yes, our human side really wants to touch as many lives as possible.