Fibromyalgia & Chronic Pain LIFE Winter 2014, Issue 10 | Page 22

decided to try a series of low-dose hormone shots to see if they would jump-start my follicle production. Being told this could take up to three months to work, I went to my first appointment after five days of treatment with no expectations. To my surprise, I was told I had responded very well--my follicle count had increased to six. My hormone trial was a success and I was definitely a candidate for IVF with a gestational carrier. Sigh of relief? Check. Chronic Pain Sufferers: Never Give Up Hope L iving with chronic pain is a full-time job. And, like any job, it can wear you out. Remission may seem an impossible goal, and suffering can erode your hopes of ever feeling better. While in my early thirties (1979), I was so ill my doctors gave me less than six months to live. For many years I lived with terrible pain, and my husband David and I often felt vulnerable, frightened, and overwhelmed. After I was hospitalized numerous times with several autoimmune illnesses, we decided to look beyond the usual medical treatments. N ow my husband and I are beginning the process to retrieve my eggs and freeze embryos. I have begun cutting down on my medications and hope to be medicine free by the end of February. I know I will experience pretty heavy withdrawal and may be largely bedridden, but hopefully, I will only have to endure this for four to six months. Since my husband’s work does not provide paid leave and I do not qualify for any type of home health care under my health insurance, my mother will be with me for the duration. Initially I tried acupuncture that provided much relief, and during these sessions I also learned about food sensitivities. After discontinuing twenty-six foods and following a restricted diet, my quality of life improved significantly. Still, there was more work to do. As a nurse and therapist I often witnessed the power of positive thinking and saw it help with healing. I made a list of positive thoughts about getting better, having less pain, and I made a point of saying them out loud at least twice each day. I also made a list of the things I was grateful for and never ceased expressing my gratitude to those who had helped me. Several different therapies helped me in coping with pain: • physical therapy, • rest and relaxation, • prayer, meditation, • mental imagery, • biofeedback, and • counseling when necessary. These (along with others) helped keep my hope alive. Entertaining negativity would only foster undesirable outcomes, so I worked hard at being positive. I chose not to allow fibromyalgia and other illnesses to win and several are currently in remission. Though all of us die, I decided to live my life to its fullest until then. I am meeting with my doctors in the next few weeks to generate my treatment plan. There are many steps left in my journey-numerous injections, retrieving eggs monthly, freezing embryos, finding a gestational carrier, etc.,- but as for having hope that I will one day have children? Check! Elizabeth Joniak-Grant Aletha Kuenstler, author of Chronic Illness: Facing Its Challenges (Xulon Press, 2011, paperback, e-book). Website: chronicillnessfacingitschallenges.com 22  Fibromyalgia & Chronic Pain Life Winter 2014