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Drinking and Driving IS a By Carlethia Linnen Email: [email protected] The year was 2006 when I crashed my car and nearly ended my life. That year was the beginning of my cocaine addiction, and it began an upswing in my drinking habit. Both life-altering habits stemmed from a horrific marriage. Before my accident, I was just released from my first detox and rehab center. A week after I got home, I relapsed badly with drugs and alcohol. The day of my accident, I constantly took shots of vodka and snorted cocaine. My oldest daughter, who was nine, wanted to go to a friend’s house down the street. I hesitated for a moment, but allowed her to go because it was a good excuse to go hang out again. I dropped my daughter off and proceeded down the road. I was sipping on a cup of vodka and reached for my cigarettes. As soon as I reached for them, they fell, and I foolishly bent down to get them. I lost control and headed for a ditch. I recall screaming, then hitting something hard (tree stump), and I blacked out. As I was regaining consciousness, I heard a male voice talking on the phone with 911. He thought I was dead. I began to move, and I heard him screaming, “She’s alive; please hurry.” "DON'T" I survived with only a big gash in my forehead, a cut under my left eye that required extensive stitches, scrapes, and bruises. My car was a total loss. I knew afterwards that I had a serious problem, but I was in denial about it all. My illusions and shame kept me from seeking help in the early stages. After that shameful and near death experience, I sought and got the help I needed. If you need help with an addiction, first look for physical signs in your walk, talk, and appearance. Second, don’t be in denial about the addiction; you need to admit that there is a problem. Third, contact someone you trust to find professional help. The journey to sobriety may be hard in the beginning, but it will be worth it at the end. I’m a living witness! FAITH HEART MAGAZINE I 34