It’s a darkness that enters my body through an unknown portal.
It’s black matter
Invisible to the naked eye,
But its weight is felt just the same.
A heaviness that lives inside my rib cage,
With an iron tight fist
Gripped around my lungs.
A cold icy river
Replaces my blood
Freezing over in my arteries,
Making my body numb and my movements slow.
It’s snow in August,
An eternal winter
A cold you can’t escape.
It crawls into bed with you,
It whispers your fears,
It tells you lies about the truth.
It’s a great cat pacing your door,
Refusing to let you leave this place,
It’s the acceptance you wanted,
The emptiness you felt, the pain you let in.
It’s the one person you can’t escape.