COMMENT
KILLER SPICE
A prisoner sends his story in the hope of helping others
I am currently in the segregation unit due to my serious assault on another inmate . I need to share my story with the community of DDN readers as this may save lives and help stop people in and out of prison from using spice .
I have been using spice since 2011 and started smoking it when I was in my local cat C prison . This was when it was an actual ' legal high ', and less lethal and toxic than it is nowadays . I ended up being extremely addicted to it and had some seriously scary encounters . I ’ ve gone under , nearly died , and gone to another dimension where I ’ ve tripped out and lost my mind .
Seven times I developed psychosis and this was frightening . I have physically hurt people to the point where I ’ ve nearly killed them and left them with life-changing injuries . All for a little bit of spice .
In prison I went from 18.5 stone down to 6 stone 7 in just 4.5 months . The mental health unit was talking about sectioning me to admit me to hospital for feed drips and tubes . I eventually ended up getting my jaw broken twice in the same day , just minutes apart , and I had to have a 4.5 hour operation to rebuild my jaw . I now have four plates , screws and nerve damage and serious scarring inside my mouth and on my face . I have just been diagnosed with PTSD four years later .
When I returned from hospital I ended up with psychosis for the first time and I took a massive overdose trying to end my life . God knows how I am still alive .
I ended up losing my head totally and set fire to my cell with me inside , then set fire to the whole landing , nearly killing myself , 16 members of staff and 32 prisoners . I got transferred back to my previous prison and ended up back on spice paper . I lost it once again and took another massive overdose and developed psychosis yet again . I was transferred again and put in the segregation unit . I was once again smoking spice paper , smoking weed and solid , sniffing MDMA , sniffing cocaine / flake , sniffing Subutex , taking tablets , drinking hooch and smoking tobacco .
I was only there for a short time , then sent here where I ’ ve been stuck since February 2020 . I have been on and off spice paper non stop , set fire to my cell in the segregation unit with me inside , set fire to my cell windows on the wing , smashed prison property causing thousands of pounds worth of damage , and selfharmed non stop . I have seriously assaulted another prisoner and been segregated for it .
Earlier this month I woke up at 12.45am and wanted a pipe of spice without fully waking up . Before I ’ d gone to sleep I ’ d put a big piece of spice paper at
Seven times I developed psychosis and this was frightening . I have physically hurt people to the point where I ’ ve nearly killed them and left them with life-changing injuries . All for a little bit of spice . the side of my radio , folded up into a tiny square . When I woke and saw it I didn ’ t remember putting it there – and I put it into my element ( burner ) and smoked the full thing . I could feel my heart hitting off my chest and hear it beating so hard and fast in my head , trying so goddam hard to keep me alive ! I could feel the poison rushing through my veins and into my head – it felt like razors , glass and scalding-hot lava . My brain was on fire and felt like it was melting . My jaw was clenching shut extremely tight and felt like it was going to shatter . My lungs felt like they were burning and had been squashed to the point where I could not breathe – it felt like they were being sliced open . It felt like I had red hot glowing razor blades slicing through my scalp .
I had a massive seizure / fit and although my cell was extremely hot I felt like I was laid inside a bath of ice , shaking continuously . I felt my body shutting down . I looked up to God and begged for one more shot at life and asked him to please send my mum down as my guardian angel to guide me to safety and my heart calmed down . A nurse came out and did some observations on me and an ECG , which somehow all said I was fine . I didn ’ t tell her that I ’ d just done a big nasty hit of spice paper because the night staff were searching through my cell as the nurse was trying to help me and it put me off telling her the truth .
Two weeks on I ’ m still not right at all and I don ’ t think I ever will be . The other day I had a big seizure / fit and I ’ m still hallucinating where walls and floors were melting and dripping , and I keep seeing black things crawling on me and all over my cell . This is the worst detox off spice I ’ ve EVER done by far and I ’ ve still got another two weeks to go .
We need to wake up and see what spice is doing as we do not have a clue what we are smoking and putting into our precious bodies . Stay away from spice ! It ’ s a big killer . Name and prison location supplied
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