Connections Quarterly Summer 2019 - Gender | Page 30

A PAR EN T RE SPO NDS Continued from page 27 community of older people of color has been our community since my child was a baby. After shopping at a thrift store for boy’s “Sun- day best” clothing and arriving to the worship space with my son dressed “like a boy,” I can’t say that familiar parishioners showed an out- pouring of affirmation and support. Perhaps shock and surprise have morphed through the years to muted tolerance. • • • • Gender, then and now, is very public for my transgender boy. Here are some ways it mani- fests publicly in our lives “It was the first time in the school’s century-long history that a current student had transitioned. It certainly will not be the last.” • • • In my kid’s case, his classmates were intro- duced to his new name and male pronouns. It was the first time in the school’s century- long history that a current student had tran- sitioned. It certainly will not be the last. And the school will learn from each child’s journey how better to navigate gender with the chil- dren they serve. I wrestled with my kid’s clear, persistent, and insistent gender dysphoria privately for sev- eral months. I heard unrelenting frustrations: • a refusal to wear any clothing that looked girlish... even denim pants with a star stitched on the pocket went in the refusal pile Page 28 Summer 2019 pretend play through only male char- acters (Diego not Dora; later Maui not Moana) a deep fear of growing up to be a mom; dad, maybe, but mom never grief at having female anatomy; at hav- ing no “weiney” an unrelenting desire to have his hair cut and his earrings removed. As you’ve likely heard, public restrooms can be difficult to navigate. When my son was called pretty when he was being presented as a girl, adults would be trying to compliment him and he would literally scowl at them. Camp is hard; ensuring your kid is safe in the space of public restrooms with grown adult cis-men and unknown boys is really scary. Gender is distinctive because expression can be so public, and you can’t easily tell a four- year-old when and how to share their gender identity. Gratefully, I had local health prac- titioners to support my child and me as we made sense of my child’s gender journey. First at church, at school, and then in our circle of friends and family I had to share my child’s identity and new name. As a result, things shifted. Friends or family members had to find their way to affirming my child... or the relationship would naturally CSEE Connections