"You keep clinging to me tighter. I feel like your smothering me more and more to the point I can't take it anymore.”
I couldn’t believe what I was hearing. He had more to say, “It's going to take everything I got to keep from walking out the door.”
The love that I thought was genuine has made me realize that it was about to cancel out on me. I started to expelling every joyous memory we ever made together, trying to convince him not to go. "What about the house we built, the cars we’ve bought and the credit line we've established, the family we were preparing to make?" All of this is about to crumble before my feet. I tried everything to show him how we could get through this trying time. Then he told me,
“I rather leave you now than you, one day, you push me away!”
I was confused, “So you are going to walk away from our love because you are afraid of love?” I asked.
“Yes”, he said, “I’m sorry but I have to walk away.”
I felt fury in my bones. I stepped back to piece it all together in mind. "Let me get this straight. You feel more of a man now by breaking my heart than to trust the love we share which you think will break your heart later?”