Caring magazine 46 Caring July 2017 | Page 6

Help and support “Sleep was a luxury item in our house... The environment just wasn’t conducive to anyone getting sleep” in caring if they’ve never been involved themselves. Isolation is one of the worst things about it. You can feel that no one around you understands what you’re going through. Sleep was a luxury item in our house. My husband’s seizures are mobile, noisy and there’s a lot of banging around. The environment just wasn’t conducive to anyone getting sleep. There’s also a lot of negativity in the media surrounding people on benefits that has hurt carers, too. People will look at us and because my husband isn’t in a wheelchair they don’t see a disability and they think, ‘Why aren’t you at work?’ People don’t realise I have a full time job, it’s giving medication, it’s putting someone in the recovery position, a lot of the time it’s physical nursing. I don’t think most people in society realise that carers are working hard and are really struggling financially just to make ends meet. Ten years ago everything came to a head when my husband got really poorly. We had a six-month period where he had 30 seizures a day. We were in a cycle where he would sleep, seize and wake over and over. The hospital didn’t know what was wrong and they’d tried all of the available drug therapies. We were both totally exhausted and we realised we couldn’t carry on working. The kids were at secondary school and they were struggling. My daughter has said that some days she would go out and she didn’t know whether Colin would be alive when she came back. We moved to be near my parents and they gave me a hand, but there was no other support. Colin was eventually diagnosed with a serious infection. It was around this time that I recognised myself as a carer. While we were trying to get my husband’s 6 invalidity benefits sorted, social services gave me a leaflet about being a carer. The first paragraph said, ‘Are you caring for somebody?’ I thought, ‘Hang on a minute.’ I read the rest and recognised straight away that I was a carer. Up to that point I thought I was just looking after my family and I just had to deal with it. Social services quickly started to help with a self- directed support package. I felt supported from the minute the forms were filled in, but I hadn’t realised how burnt out I was until it got better. It’s important to identify as a carer, people in our family were suffering – my children were young carers and we just didn’t know. We didn’t even know there was help available. There was a carers centre in a neighbouring town that we had no idea about. It’s hard for people to understand the pressure and real hardship involved The financial strain makes everything so much more difficult. There are added expenses that you don’t even think about, such as extra laundry or additional heating and equipment. We were burning through washing machines because we had a continual cycle of washing. Every time “My children were young carers and we just didn’t know. We didn’t even know there was help available” carersuk.org