By Jheri Stone

" Chill out " he says as I get in the car and grab his face and scratch his neck . " Wassup ? You missed me or something ?" " No I didn ' t " saying jokingly as I grabbed his arm to be closer to him . I knew what I was getting myself into before I even did it . I ' ve wanted this man for years now I got him and don ' t know what to do . In my head I ' m thinking , " Mya , why are you even falling for him you know he is no good " but my body screams otherwise . Knowing he talks to many other bitches , but I want to believe it ' s only me , oh what a fool . I swore to never fall for such a nigga again , but his smile leaves me mesmerized . While I lay on his arm the next thing I know is he is grabbing my thighs and looking me in my eyes . Then he whispers " what that do to you ?" While he starts to grab my neck and say " wassup , talk to me " I can barely get my words out all I can say is " I want you , I want you now " As he puts his hand in my pants , he whispers in my ear " you missed daddy , I can tell " I ' m just dripping wet my body is so warm from this sexual sensation I don ' t know what to do . As he flips me over and snatches my pants down , I turn and stare and I bite my lip . While he is in mid stroke his phone rings , it continues to ring numerous times . He then stops and answers ...... " Mane wassup , what ' s going on ?" " You where ? Bruh stop playing "

He tries to hurry and buckle his pants then next thing I know I hear a knock on the window , but it ' s not a girl it ' s another nigga . All I hear is " Are you gone tell the bitch you fucking what you really like ? And you might as well show her this too ." As I try to get out the car he grabs me but I snatch away . I see a paper on the ground and it reads " Positive " I couldn ' t do anything but breakdown because the man that I was a sucker for was a sucker for another nigga . I calmly said to him " this whole time I was worried about a bitch , but you ended up being one ."

By Victoria Stout

All I could think about as I paced the office floor at work .... is why in the fuck he would lie to me after all these years and everything that we have been through ... Carmen was no fool , but she knew that her boyfriend , Antonio of 3 years was no angel . He was just too sneaky and very manipulative . They had no major problems besides a baby mama by the name of Jazz that couldn ' t let go . I was starting to think that the bitch sat at home thinking of ways to bother him , I think she secretly had a shrine up of him . She was certified obsessed ... I ignored it because the time spent and his actions showed that he didn ' t give two fucks about her and his only concerns was his son he had with her . It was a normal Monday morning and me Antonio both left the house around the same time , said our goodbyes . A few days ago I had taken a pregnancy test and I was gone share the news with him tonight over dinner . I got my music playing loud as can be , all the right songs are coming on the " Jagged Edge radio station ". I pull up in the parking lot at work and get out the car . I decide to take my sunglasses off and I had to look three times to make sure I wasn ' t tripping , and here this hoe Jazz was waiting in front of the door , now I have told her before that I was gone to beat her ass the next time I seen her but the trick had the nerve to come to job .... What do you want ?

Jazz : I need to talk to you since your boyfriend ain ' t responding to me ... with this dumb ass look on her face that would make you want to slap the smirk off her face What could you possibly have to tell me now ? Jazz : I ’ m three months pregnant and he gave me a fuckin STD and I need one of y ’ all to pay for it ??? All I seen was fuckin red , before I knew it I had slapped her ass into the door and my hand was around her neck threatening to kill her ... it took four of my coworkers to get me off of her . She kept laughing as she walked away saying ” you gone pay for this ” “ this isn ’ t over bitch ” … who would have known that later on those exact words would have meant something . I couldn ’ t even get myself to call him and curse him out because this was something that needed to be said in person , this was what I called the ultimate betrayal ... my hands were shaking and my head was throbbing and I couldn ’ t understand why someone I loved and who loved me would do such a thing . Sitting at work for 8 long ass hours gave me a lot to think about … I changed my approach so much that I started confusing myself ... I hadn ’ t responded to none of his text asking me how was work ? What ’ s for dinner ? He even tried calling a few times and I turned the phone off . Staring at the clock all day and it felt like it would never say 4:30 ... I had no idea what I was going to do but I knew one thing is that I needed answers ... I decided to stop act the liquor store on my way home and grab two bottles of wine home ...

... I popped one open in the car and was finished before I even made it off the highway . I wasn ’ t even caring about the fact that I was pregnant too . Pulling up to my driveway , I see Antonio had already made it . “ This bitch ”, I whispered . I had to get myself together in the car before walking in , I opened the door and it was music playing ... lights dimmed ... and food on the table ... I hope this nigga didn ’ t think I was about to give him sum ... “ Too drunk to focus ” I hear him from the room “ Carmen is that you come in here , I got a surprise for you ” yea it ’ s me as I slowly walked in the room . It was beautiful , rose pedals everywhere , candles lit and his fine ass was laying there with just a towel wrapped around his waist . I completely forgot about wtf I was mad about at the time .

Before I knew it my clothes hit the floor and Antonio was hitting and licking every spot that you can imagine , the sex was so good that I began to cry and as I was crying I thought about everything that happen earlier and I found myself on top of him riding the shit out of his dick that he kept telling me to slow down , I put the pillow over his face and I grabbed the knife that I took out the kitchen … bae can I ask you something ? He replied anything for you , especially if you keep fucking me like that ? I paused with him still inside of me . DID YOU GET JAZ PREGNANT AGAIN ??? He threw the pillow off his face and he seen the knife in my hand … no I haven ’ t been with her since our son … you gave her a

fuckin STD ?? Which means I have it too ? He kept pleading his case , at the same time his phone kept going off and all I seen was her name , it was saved as BM ... I couldn ’ t see the messages but I kept thinking why she texting is him right now ? She had to be telling the truth !! Antonio still screaming that she was lying and to please put the knife down !! Fuck you !! I said ... Before I knew it I stabbed him right in his stomach multiple times and I watched him take his last breath and whispered “ I just wanted to marry you and raise our child together .” I got up and sat on the floor and grabbed his phone to look at the messages . Jazz : I lied to yo girl today and I hope she leaves you and my son isn ’ t yours !!! I also seen a message to his mom that said “ I am going to propose tonight ” I looked at the nightstand and there it was : a fuckin engagement ring .