BoldlyU Magazine Issue 5 | Page 40

STRICTLY TWEENS School Struggles I feel as though that I am sleep walking throughout my life. Or, at least, for the few years of my life now. I look down at the speckled floors as I walk to lunch, with kids speeding past me and laughing, while thinking to myself about how alone I feel. This whole school is based on who is dating who and who is the most undateable. Are you kidding me? Is this what we are going to base our lives around, the people who dress nice but talk crap behind you? I honestly hate it. I hate the small talk with people who forget your name once you walk away and the nervous laughter that comes from my lips to try to blend in. I hate trying to blend in. It’s so pointless.  As I think about traveling and exploring new countries and my life ten years from now, people around are worried about who’s going shopping this weekend. Sure, I like to have fun and laugh with the crowd. But sometimes that laughter fades, and I wish I could be anywhere else. Anywhere but here. I wish I could click my ruby shoes and vanish into thin air, and to end up living my life somewhere where I could laugh because I want to, not be- cause I feel pressured to do so. Where I could have conversations about love, heartbreak, and the evolution of humans and god and religion and things that seem too sad or depressing or deep for my age and the people around me. Maddie, 12 40 March 2017