BANZA January 2016 Issue | Page 58

Reaching for the stars but the clouds won’t let me Gcinekile Zwane “You never get it, do you? You dumb girl!” Nolwazi heard her mother’s high-pitched voice ringing in her mind as if reliving that moment all over again. A single tear slid down from her beady eyes, and another, and another, until soon, a steady stream of salty tears flowed its way down her pale cheeks, releasing the sadness and sorrow that has been held inside of her all this time but still she did not make a sound. Her whole body started trembling. She took a deep breath as if exhaling all the pain out, trying so hard to steady her shaking hands. She opened her eyes. “I’m sorry, this was a mistake,” Nolwazi said hastily standing up running towards the door. “Nolwazi stop!” Dr Msibi tried to stop her but it was too late. Upon her way to the door, she turned back and said; “I shouldn’t have come here”. Still crying, she shut the door so hard and ran out.